Heart Wide Open

I had this up a while ago, but took everything that was on this site down. Decided to add it back, though. Enjoy.

It was a nice change in things

Made me learn to believe in dreams

Conquered fears one by one

Tore down the wall I spent

My whole life building

They told me to be careful

But I wished with my heart wide open

I fell slowly but surely

I reached out for a hand so I wouldn't drown

Psyched myself up like Rocky

Ready for a big fight

Didn't know how it'd turn out

So I hoped for the best,

But knew to expect the worst

Only this time it was different

Hope had conquered realism

I was the 'head-over-heels' girl

Desire, fear, hope ran through me

As the last of the wall fell away

I left myself open, exposed, vulnerable

I needed your help, but you shied away

Alone in the rain,

My tears mixed with the droplets

How could I have let this happen?

I spent my life protecting my heart,

Ignoring feelings so I wouldn't hurt

But you proved your worth

I broke through then saw

What I had been so afraid of

I'm back to what I'm used to,

Away from what I don't know

I've fallen back in step

With the life I've always known

But I don't want to go fully back

The fears I've conquered still linger

But if I beat them once, I can again

It's just a life experience,

Breaking your heart to learn to feel

Now it's time for another - moving on:

Loving the life I live,

Living the love I feel

With my heart wide open,

Ready to break again.